Overflowing water !

I used to look you from far..
Looking at you when you laughed loudly
Or when playing and telling lame jokes with your friends
Tho you might not able to notice me..
But at least I know that you are truly happy at that moment

Soon.. We get to be together
Everything goes well.. Happy and sweet all the time

Till.. Problems occured.

From that time onwards..
I will cry everyday..

Making my parents to detest me
Making my friends to hate me cuz they thought that I am the one who hurts you

And..

Making me to despise of myself
For can't being the person that you will think of firstly when you are facing problems
For not being the one to cheer you up
For being the main reason to make you think too much.. Moody.. And eventually cried
For being the person to waste up your time and money

What has happened to me?
It is not the wan ting that I wish to be
Not at all..

I shall make myself blind one day..
Or..
I shall leave the world quietly..
To a place where no one will be able to find me..